Turning Pages

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I find this photo really amusing.
Lol, me at Club Dornisfe.

Man..there's so much I can say about college. It's so surreal that it's over..saddening, freeing, all in all bittersweet.

But I'm realizing that all I have, and all I need, is God at the end of the day. The friends I grew closest to in college, the relationships formed and good times I had, those will all be sweetly remembered..and though I want so much to hang on to those I won't see anymore, I need to let go of them and let go of the regrets as well so I can keep walking forward. I'm thankful that He's given me closure about some things, and though I'm still looking for closure in others, I know everything will work out for my good and according to His will. All I can strive for is to give my life fully to God now, to those He places in my life to love, and to the purposes He has for me in these next steps.

On another note, I really am thankful He got me this far. For a lot of people it was kind of a given that they'd finish school more or less with flying colors. But with the voice He gave me, I've always had to wonder about the next big thing and whether I'd make it. In middle school it'd be, "How are you gonna get through high school with that voice?" In high school people would ask, "How are you gonna get through college with that voice?" He's brought me through so many struggles and so many incidences that would make me want to give up altogether. But me and God, we made it..we made it. Next up: Getting a job, and getting into grad school. Haha, oh God..it's all You.

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