Expression

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I'm learning how to express myself. I've always been aware of my weaknesses in articulation and explaining things, but true expression is deeper than that. I have a problem of never expressing my real thoughts and convictions. I fall into hiding them and blending in and sounding like everyone else because what I really desire and think I tend to feel are too "radical" for someone as reserved as me to be pushing. But I'm realizing the immense need to actually speak out my convictions and talk about my passions, or else I lose them to the slow tide of Christianity in the church today. It happens all the time for me. And lately, I've been fearing a lot that I'm going to become just another "Sunday Christian" if I don't go on long-term missions (a subject for another day).

Anyway, I do have my moments when "all is clear" and I can actually preach it like no one's listening, haha. I realize it's actually the Spirit that clears the way and gives me grace over the fear that usually keeps me quiet. I want more of those moments. Those moments are what made two people accept Christ over VSET, and they're when I feel most fulfilled. Along with prayer, they're when I feel most in touch with what's inside of me, the Spirit of the living God. If I can express myself on a regular basis, I think something greater will result..something like personal transformation..and permanent exchange of fear for faith. Amen ("let it be").

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Serendipitous Tris said…
my pastor once said, yielding to the HS is like a habit to be developed. initially, it feels awkward and we resist but over time as we continue to yield more and more, we become 'sensitive' instruments to the slightest prompting by God...and everyday becomes a 'mission' with God :)
February 5, 2011 at 5:36 AM
Felicia Sun said…
Thanks brother..I completely agree.
February 7, 2011 at 11:30 AM
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