Dealing with Jealousy

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Jealousy has been a problem for me lately. I've never really had to deal with this problem so much in the past, but now it's like I can't even look at my Facebook homepage and not go through pangs of jealousy and thoughts of "man..why don't I have that." I guess it's this last semester of college, where my friends around me are all landing high-paying jobs, getting into relationships, getting into grad school, etc. etc. and here I am, with none of that. And I guess it's made me panic. I've even tripped myself into thinking maybe I didn't work that hard, and that I'm not even capable of getting a high-paying job.

Tonight I was just repenting for all that jealousy that's plagued my heart for the past weeks. Prayer is the way to clarity, to truth. When you're still before God, truth can begin to reveal itself and its reminders are so reassuring. This is my prayer to God, and I hope it continues to be the prayer of my heart of hearts until it's all over..

"God, with You I have everything I could ever want and need. I repent for all my jealousy, and I'm sorry for wanting so much of the world. God, I could have all of that..all the friends I want, the career, the grades, the boyfriend, the car..but if I don't have you it would all be worth nothing. With You I have everything. I rather be poor, be a failure, or be rejected..than not have You. You're all I have in this world, and I am completely satisfied."

"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ." -Phil 3:8

Comments

Frances said…
AMENNN FELICIAAA! oh man, i have so much i want to respond to your post... and i will later this week, precious sis! first, just want to say PRAISE GOD for your repentance and also to let you know that you're not the only one who's been struggling with jealousy lately. i love you and miss you sis. i think it is truly TIME for a real catch-up soon! and you are right... if we have Jesus, we have EVERYTHINGGGG!

my favorite praise song:
Give Me JESUS

("You can have all this world, just give me Jesus, Jee-ee-sus!!!")
February 26, 2011 at 10:30 PM
Anonymous said…
Sometimes what we want may not be good for us. Trust Him, Father knows best. =]
February 27, 2011 at 3:51 PM
Felicia Sun said…
@Frances jie, I'm so sorry we still haven't caught up =/. I think you have a lot to update me on. Maybe I can call you one of these days, <3.

@Anonymous: I'm usually afraid of anonymous comments, but glad to have read a blessing instead. Thank you!
February 27, 2011 at 11:30 PM
A. Manullang said…
"Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much." James 5:16

..i was tempted to click the anonymous bullet too. =P
March 3, 2011 at 5:59 PM
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