Timeout

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I've been going around pretty jaded lately, and I don't know why but I kinda do. It's kind of like a soul ache. I'm aching for Heaven because I'm dying here on earth, God. Still dizzying over an incident that occurred last month, still have these moments where I feel everything but worthy..used and abused, pretty much just trash. My mind's so disorganized and my words so jumbled that it's just all getting worse, and I've been trying to say to myself it's nothing and it probably is to the world..but it's different when you're soaring with God and a little temptation from the world shoots your wings down and you're sunken and wandering again. Who knew by trying to please someone I'd be sacrificing some of my soul.

Seeking a legit non-judgmental, grace-filled ear attached to a sister in Christ.
Becaause.."Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed." -James 5:16 [the healing part doesn't quite work unless the adjectives denoted are present=)]

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Monica said…
Felicia,
I wish I could help you. I'm sorry I can't be a more helpful friend because I know that I don't qualify for those adjectives. But if you ever want to talk, about anything, do know that you can call me anytime (and I mean it).
:)
Anyways, whatever is bothering you, don't let it get to you too much because it's not worth your attention!
I hope you feel better soon:)

Love,
Monica

p.s. I am exploring your music! Thanks so much for sharing them. I'm taking time to listen to just a few songs a day, and I'm liking them so far :)
January 24, 2010 at 1:04 AM
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